The Founder's Testimony

 I was born in El Paso, Texas on June 18, 1958, in a small border farm clinic bordering the Texas-Mexico line. My dad was in the booming oil field. And soon we moved, at the age of six, to Odessa, Texas, where I have lived since.

My parent's were Christians and raised us in church, where at the age of nine, I accepted Jesus to my personal Lord and Savior. I had begun to question what it meant to be born again and after much conviction, I felt the need to accept God's gift of eternal life. It would be a life changing experience and for the first time in my life, I truly felt God's presence in my heart. It was as though I could hear all the angels in Heaven rejoicing.

As I continued to grow in the Lord I became more aware that he was calling me into the ministry. Then one summer at the age of twelve I attended a church camp for young people. At the end of the first day of camp it was time to go back to the cabin. It was really dark for there was no lighting and I walked with a friend and there appeared a bright light to the right of me. I could not see this bright light but I felt it's presence. So as I continued to walk I them realized this bright light was God as He was talking to me. God told me: Stephen I have great plans for you. And I will prepare you and take care of you as you do my service.

I am calling you to be a minister of the gospel and to follow my will as I have shared with you here. You just preach and evangelize for me and I will take care of the rest. This totally blew my mind, and my friend could not comprehend to who I was talking to, as he thought I was crazy. But as we continued to walk I was able to talk to my friend and share with him what God had told me He wanted me to do for my life. As we got back to the cabin and I had this experience I was so excited I couldn't even sleep. I talked to the pastor and told him the experience I had, and was ready to give my life to Jesus. I dedicated my life that night to doing the Lord's will and his work. The next night at invitation time I decided to go down and dedicate my life to Jesus and His service.

     As my life appears one filled with love and normalcy, it wasn't. Because I was abused and my parent's never knew it was happening. It started a chain of event's that caused and made my life develop into panic, anxiety, depression, and loneliness. Though God had called me to serve Him it did not eliminate the problems that I had. Being abused was a horrifying event in my childhood, but with Gods help I made it through; Alive and continue to serve Him as He wills me to do. Doing His will does not come easy and does not eliminate the problems. But by the grace of God it Helps the problems. Alot of people have asked me how can you serve God and have gone through what you have and still have, and serve Him. But when God calls you to do something for Him He takes care of you and provides a way.

God only asks for you to be available and that is the key to serving Him. I have answered His call for my lifetime I am His and He is mine. Through His redeeming Blood and through His Grace I am His. Jesus is the very reason I live and the very reason I survive. I serve Jesus on the internet for He has called me to be His minister.

     Though I may have the problems of panic, depression and anxiety; Jesus still loves me. Jesus does not look at what we are or what we have, He looks at the soul and the intentions of our Heart. He uses the Least of us. "For you see your calling, brethren, how that not Many Mighty noble, are called: But God has chosen the Foolish things of the world to confound the Wise; and God hath chosen the WEAK things of the world to confound the things which are Mighty;" 1 Corinthians 1:26&27. "For I determined not to know any thing among you, save Jesus Christ, and Him crucified" That your faith should not stand in the Wisdom of Men, but in the Power of God" 1 Corinthians 2:2&5. "Jesus prayed~"I thank thee, O Father, Lord of heaven and earth, Because thou hast HID these things from the WISE and PRUDENT, and hast REVEALED them unto BABES.

Even so, Father; for so it seemed good in thy sight" Matthew 11:25&26. "They that are whole have no need of the physician, but they that are sick: I came Not to call the Righteous, but Sinners to repentance." Mark2:17. " are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake. Rejoice, and be Exceeding Glad; for Great is your reward in heaven." Matthew 5:11&12. For if we had no problems, would we need him? He knows our heart. Jesus I love you for how you loved me, yet you came yourself to die for me. I also thank you Jesus for your loving hand of forgiveness. Thank you for calling me to minister for you. Though I have blemishes and scares You still use me.

     My prayer is that all who enter here will find this a place of refuge, and mercy. For mercy surely triumphs over judgement. If you do not know Jesus and want to know Him like I do please email me. That is what I am here for! You cannot wait until you get your life together. You come to Jesus Just as you are. Broken, sin and all! If you know Jesus but struggle as this woman in the story; please email me. If you want to talk with another woman I can lead you to the woman in this story. Jesus said He came to heal the broken hearted. And he uses people like me and you.

Updated July 23,2003 On January3,1998,in the early hours of 1:30a.m. I was awakened with a severe case of indigestion,so i thought. I got up to go to the kitchen to get a drink of water thinking this would unwedge what was making me feel extremely bad.I collapsed as i was coming back to the bedroom on the bed which woke my wife.the horrible pain continued and I told my wife to call her mother to get her mother to come over and take me to the hospital.Not long as she had hung up I toild her that I didn't think I was going to be able to wait for her and then I collapsed again.She called 911 and they came and took me to the hospital. Once at the hopsital,I was quickly taken in and the doctors quickly worked on me for they told me it was a serious heart attack.I thought,Me,Lord?I am your servant and i am having a heart attack?"As they began to treat me,they told my wife and mother- inlaw that if I had waited 5 more minutes i would have been gone.I ahd what they called a "widow maker" and not many survived from this.They clickly did a heartgram cleare the problems. A month later,I had open-heart surgery to fix the problem .Alot of damage but God blessed the doctors with the skills and tools to fix my heart. The lesson I learned was one of great value.I had served God for 20 faithful years and God wasn't finished with me yet.God had taken this time of illness to call me to a brand new ministry and call.He called me to minister to the internet,for which I have been doing for Him for over 5 years now .

The lesson of my ordeal can be put in this perspective.We are not promised today or tommorrowby no means and when God sees it is our time He calls us home.Also,as with the doctors that repaired my heart,God can heal and repair yours with His everlasting love,grace,and eternal.All you have to do is ask Him,anytime of day,and He will come into your heart and forgive you of all your sins.He is Our True Heart Surgeon. Like myself,God stands there at the door and is waiting,all we have to do is ask. He will then come in and like a suregon,heal,forgive,repair and make you His child. Don't put it off for we are only a heart beat away from eternity.either it will be heaven or hell. DON"T DELAY!